and sun still shined.
on the other side
it never rains when you keep your head above the clouds.
sink and sweep again,
but always remember.
it fades
when you dont remember and bites when you do.
so take another sip and forget, let go of everything your heart believed true.
keep pacing.
down that road mike you'll see the sky again, a new sun and a new moon will shine again.
turn red from blue

no more.

i always wonder what it would be like, to undo this wall i built..

 yesterday was the best birthday i had in awhile, i woke up and my pops took me to get clothes, i got a couple pants and a badass jacket. then i went over to the lovely gabrielle's house and they threw me a little party with cake and everything. i dont think any of my friends have done that for me on my birthday, then we went out to walmart and i saw my mom randomly shopping for some fabric or something, so my friends met her. after that we went back to gaby's and played a game about the 90's, it was mad fun but some of the questions were fucked haha after that we watched the greatest movie of all time. it was so amazing i dare not speak of its name. all in all my bday was fuckin sick

 Last night my bro's andy and eric came by to chill, so we did what we do best and got suited up for no reason other than we're the definition of class. we drove over to pete's hizzi and chilled on some pbr's in celebration for pete's and my bday. i wasn't feeling good at all but my friends always turn that around. i guess i have practice again in an hour , so im gonna get goin on that shit.

 today was alright, i woke up, after having the tormenting recurring dreams to find i had band practice. Practice was good, im really liking the direction it is going and how im playing. i've been getting depressed though, i can't really turn it around, the tears just well up and i hide them even though im on the verge of breaking down. its this horrible feeling of being alone and feeling inadequate even though im not in appearance, i am.i hate it, this weakness of mine. i have so much to offer people and so much inside my heart. and its going to pass, i know but it feels so heavy and heartbreaking right now. i guess all i can do is dream.